Do you live like you could fail
Or is your heart so caught up in fear of loss
That you throw the chance of life away
While you wait for the perfect moment to pass you by

This torture inside
Only feeds the pain
I know it’s not real
It loves to complain
Distractions amuck
Force incredible distress
And with every defeat
I still fear its next success

Is this dream something that’s real
Or has the hurt crept in to tell you its lies
And how there’s nothing worth fighting for
While you wait for a silent illness to feed you truth

This torture inside
Only feeds the pain
I know it’s not real
It loves to complain
Distractions amuck
Force incredible distress
And with every defeat
I still fear its next success

Will the pain begin to fall
Or has it lasted so long that you forget
How it feels to be alive for real
And you wait for the final moment before you die

This torture inside
Only feeds the pain
I know it’s not real
It loves to complain
Distractions amuck
Force incredible distress
And with every defeat
I still fear its next success

There it goes
Off into the sun
The sparkle that was once within
Now with naught but a cold dry heart
Empty and saddened
Bitterness runs through the veins

There it falls
Down into the sea
The beat that was once within
Now with naught but a slow wretched heart
Bruised and scarred
Hopelessness runs through the veins

There it hides
Way behind the mountains
The song that was once within
Now with naught but a silent dimmed heart
Torn and faded
Loneliness runs through the veins

Here it comes
From high above the heavens
A new spirit to be within
Now with a glorious beating heart
Full and vibrant
Happiness runs through the veins

A moment of rage crosses my mind
Will it stay
As I open my eyes, flurries of sand scrape through my vision
I see nothing
I know nothing
The wind blows away all knowledge of my surroundings

But how could I forget
With You at the head of my world
My fear has no meaning as to where I should go
Just run ahead as You guide my way
I’m ready and willing to live life

A passage of time goes through my head
Can I leave
As I wander through, hordes of rats gnaw at my feet
I can’t move
I can’t scream
The stench takes away all knowledge of my surroundings

But how could I forget
With You at the head of my world
My fear has no meaning as to where I should go
Just run ahead as You guide my way
I’m ready and willing to live life

So finally, after a month of editing, the Mo Brown movie is ready to be downloaded. So far this is the longest movie I’ve shot. It’s a great comedic throwback to the cop movies of the 60s and 70s. If you want to download it, go to Bitner Production Movies and download ‘MoBrown.zip’ It’s about 47MB in size.

While you’re there, check out the other movies too.

If you’re interested in buying the movie on DVD, let me know. It’s $5 (plus shipping) and comes with a bunch of extras (such as more Bitner Production movies!)

Ah Hockey, how I missed thee.
For the first time since Thanksgiving I actually had fun again. I can’t believe how much I missed playing hockey. It completely re-energized me. I feel at peace and neither high, nor low. I knew I needed some exercise. Exercise is probably the biggest key to keeping me healthy all-around. I almost always feel better when I have some exercise and the opposite occurs when I don’t. Makes sense I suppose. Praise be to God!